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I am twenty one years old, and I chose to take the abortion pill in January 2011. I was eight weeks when I had the procedure done, and I regret it every day. When I found out I was pregnant, I was upset because I was afraid of how my family and friends would react, and my fiance and I did not have jobs or a place of our own. I was afraid and I didn't know what to do. At first I thought about putting my baby up for adoption, but the thought of carrying my baby for nine months and giving it away... I kept telling myself my baby deserved better because I couldn't give it the life it deserved, but now I regret my decision. I'm so emotionally traumatized that I can't even look at a pregnant woman without feeling depression and regret. If I would have kept the baby, I would be five months pregnant right now. I don't know how to come back from my decision. I have asked God to forgive me, but I can't forgive myself. I have no one to talk to because no one really understands how I feel about it. I try to treat my decision as a miscarriage, but I know what I did and I can never take it back.