I am a 21 year old female. I had an abortion on February 1st, 2008. It was the most difficult thing I have ever done in my life. At this time, my ex had gotten another female pregnant and he didn't even come with me to my surgery. After the abortion, I felt guilt, grief, and regret. I come from a strong Christian background, which made me feel worse. Then, six months after my abortion, I had a panic attack. I went to the hospital because I thought I was gong to have heart attack. Thereafter, I suffered from panic, anxiety, and depression. I see a threpist and I'm taking anti-depressants. They are working, but at this piont in my life I'm learning to be happy and blessed. I pray every day all through the day because god has blessed me and forgiven me for what I had done. It's all in the past. I learned a valuable lesson with this whole experience: that I had to stop beating myself up over over it and move on. I still think about what I did. I still hurt and it hurts the most because I'm a teacher and I work with toddlers. But I'm learning every day that I can survive and that I made the right decision.